Time To Come Clean
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No, I haven’t been lying to you guys. It’s just that I haven’t been telling the whole truth. See, once you write something online it becomes true. (I have a million dollars.) And, well, I guess I didn’t want this thing to be true. But it is.
First, my longtime readers know this but in case you’re new: I’ve been living with chronic knee pain for six years. It’s limited how much walking I can do since my knees generally ache while standing, walking, climbing stairs or running. I had been doing physical therapy to build leg muscles that would stabilize my knees, and I had been getting PRP to (hopefully) take care of the cartilage damage on my kneecap.
So that’s where I’ve been. Not really fun, but I was learning to adapt. My knees were—I truly believe—getting better. And then this.
I’ve been diagnosed with another condition that makes standing, walking (among other things) painful.
And now I realize I’ve rambled on for way too long without even getting into what I really wanted to say, which is kind of a lot. So let’s save that for tomorrow.
It’s like a cliffhanger minus the loaded gun and mysterious dark shadow.
Do you feel like putting something out there—on your blog, in an e-mail or whatnot—makes it real real?
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I always feel like that. I mean, blogging is also a form of publishing, so what you say can be held against you. I never really like the permanence of things. I hope you feel better soon
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oh GIRL I wish I could help!!
I did this last week with my back pain post and, well, thats all I shall share on a public forum
feel free to email me.
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Ah, wish there was someway in which I could help. I’ll send some good thoughts your way. Hope the pain gets better for you.
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First – I’m so so sorry that your knee problems are getting worse! You’ve always been such a great example of working fitness around a chronic injury. Second- yeah, of course! It goes the reverse for me too – if I don’t post it on my blog then it’s NOT real. Like my last pregnancy, lol. Took me 3 months to finally post about it and even then I only did so because I’d been “outed.”
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I think it’s really hard to admit things on your blog. It’s like you can no longer hide from the truth. But the community is so supportive.
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Oh, Tracey. I’m sorry to hear there’s some undisclosed challenge happening in your life but whatever it is, I still think you ARE superhuman. Hugs from afar.
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I’m sorry that the knees/legs are giving you such serious issues!
And yes, I think posting it makes it seem more legit. Mostly because is can be scary to see it in real type versus just talking about it in real conversation. I get nervous sometimes before I publish… isn’t that strange?
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I agree with what Amy B said, putting it out there makes it seem that much more real.
Whatever it is, I am sorry that you have something new to contend with. Chronic pain/issues just plain rot.
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It definitely makes it SEEM more “real.”
Because once you publish it on the internet, you can’t take it back and pretend it never happened because its THERE.
But sometimes it also helps, to accept that it IS there, so you can find ways to work around it.
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First, take care of yourself and feel better. I am so sorry to hear you’re in any pain, absolutely no fun.
I definitely get in moods where I could put stuff on blast via my blog or Twitter, but I tend to hold back. I don’t want it coming back to bite me in the a**.
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I am so sorry to hear you are battling with ANOTHER issue. Please stay strong and positive! I hope you start to feel better.
Sometimes I want to start a blog just so I have somewhere to vent
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Absolutely Tracey! I feel like now that I’ve said I’m writing a book I am expected to write a book. And what if I fail miserably and never finish it? Or what if I write it and nobody ever wants to publish it? I regret putting it out there.
In any case, I am sorry you are battling another problem…I will be back tomorrow to find out what it is!
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Sorry to hear about your knee! I pray that things get better for you. My sister and I are going through some tough areas in our life at the moment and talking about it everyday – makes it reality sometimes!
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I’m so sorry to hear this. It does make it real in a different way, and it is scary. But please know there are tons of people out there sending love.
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